Like I've said before, I didn't really get deep into the band until I first tried out. Familiar with them, yes. I had an album or two like "Selling England By The Pound" and "Trick of The Tail" as a younger lad, finding what I liked musically, but I never followed them fervently or anything.
This doesn't surprise me to hear though.
You have to understand, I was hearing nothing but positive words about the man from two of his closest, long term friends (minus one exchange that I will never repeat) while I worked with them. Could've been an "absence makes the heart grow fonder" type behavior, or a CYA thing. And as for the kind words from crewmen, I know I bust my ass to show my appreciation to those kind of people, because it ensures a smooth show then and in the future. I took it as it was.
Now personally, i choose to never read tabloids or seek out rumours about my peers. If I ever hear something, and I'm not sworn to secrecy (ahem), I'll happily share it with the Brothermen, but somehow I've been ignorant of this about Phil. I have a lot to learn about that, I guess.
Still, seeing him in that state, I don't wish that on anyone. If I ended up like that, where I couldn't hold a guitar, or struggle to sing, I would rather be dead and gone.